few very interesting links for myself worth checking in

1. http://www.we-invest.pl/aukcje/auction/66/psim-tropem-czyli-psie-podroze-male-i-duze
 - yes, yes, it is my project I am now working on! you are more then welcome to cheek it in - but you have to scroll down to get into english version (sorry for inconvenience ;)

2. http://www.londondogforum.co.uk - lots of useful information for all London's dog lovers and owners

3. http://www.bringfido.com - lots of informations for travelling dogs, or rather their owners, for when they go around the world. However this website needs much more information

4. http://bustersbest.co.uk
 - https://www.facebook.com/bustersbest.co.uk?fref=ts - great blog Buster dog blog :)

:)

Rat race vs dog sledge race

I've been thinking what is it that it has been putting me off London recently. And I think I know. London is all about rat race, fast and furious and work hard play hard. And I simply prefer slow and pleasurable. If there is any race I would consider, that would be dog sledge race or free gallop ride with my friends in countryside beautifull sourroundings. I prefer leafy jungle over overcrowded city jungle. In city jungle everyone is in a rush, annoyed by being late and often stepping on someone feet accidentally.. 

I had couple of days break away from this hectic place. It did good to me :) Although I had not enough sleep, I came back more relaxed! Amazing.

I'm doing it!!

That's it. NO matter what others might think, I am doing it. I decided it yesterday. From now on, no matter what other will think about my decisions, they will be mine decision to handle, I think about me now and about my dream coming true My life is in my hands. I hope this will be good decision, but since I decided to come and live in London things were going wrong way. I want to start make it right. I did 1st step yesterday. I bought tickets to Poland, going tomorrow, and coming back on wednesday. There's something I need to do in order to start fixing my life. Pick up from where I left. I called work, obviously they were't happy. I'm not surprise. I didn't give them any notice. I'm sorry. But only half way sorry. Because I know I'm doing it for myself ;) For my benefit. I know that I am not telling you yet WHAT is that I am doing, but I can't just yet. Soon.... :) Trust me, you will know it soon. Just follow my blog!

Am I doing it right?

Am I going in the right direction? Am I getting myself in the right place? And why is today such a weird nasty day?..  In overall, I'm in funny lethargic mood, have a flu, terrible cough and this and that.. just feel terrible. And my mum just told me she is coming over for Christmas! Well, why the hell not! Not like I had other plans, its just this was a bit of a surprise! Thats all. I don't mind, it will be nice to have family Christmas, more tradition and less of another kind of day off.. so She is coming over...

And - as I was writing it - I had a call - with a job offer! So, there IS something nice happening at the end of a day eventually! :) Nothing amazing, but - I wanted it. Job in my local pub (really great, trendy local place) so I'm gonna have close to work and - what's most important - I could get my dog asap!!! And, I will be able to get home for lunch and take him for a walk!
Cool, huh? :)

Now, I will have to speak to my current boss, to go part time.

Why am I doing this? Because I want to get my other dream to come true - yes, one of my bucket list dream, to have a dog and travel with him. This is first necessary step. Feels great, but also I am a bit nervous.

Why Not . . . Invest in Your Dreams?

I just came about very inspiring blog, which I would like to share it with you! :)
Absolutely well said, please have a look

http://www.thesimplyluxuriouslife.com/why-not-invest-in-your-dreams/#comment-14097

Grab every opportunity

"There will always be a little devil on your shoulder telling you that you can't do it, but you will have to find the confidence to overcome it" 
- said Mr. George Alagiah, famous british broadcaster to the audience of students during Speakers for School Week.

Also there more other smart saying like, Where is a will, there is a way. So - I decided to continue to purse my life challenge of happiness. As I wrote on my previous post, I want to do prove, firstable to myself, that I am able to do this, and to the whole world too, that some things ARE doable.

I wrote project about travelling with dogs. This was my childhood dream, to have my tv show where I travel to amazing places with my four legged friend and broadcast amazing stories about places and people I meet along the way.
My time is now. Its been within me for quite some time, and now I see opportunities, all I have to do, is size them right away, before they will go away!

That's why I sign up for crowdfunding website! I already done my written part, and now I am in the middle of preparing a presentation. Then, when when everythings will go nice with the plan - I will do my project!

Wish me luck!!!

Crowdfunding

do you know what this is? - I decided to take part in this and maybe, just maybe... - I will be able to get my other dream to come true!! :) the one about making document, or maybe even tv show about pros and cons about travels with dogs.

London life - KEEP CALM and carry on... ??!?!

What the hell I'm I doing here??!!
Yesterday I meet up with my french friend who came over to London for few days. One of her travelling companions asked me how long have I been here. It's been 8 years I started... The next question came up on its own, WHY I have been so long?

The truth is - I didn't meant to. I didn't even wanted to came to London anyway! But at the beginning it was kind of escape place, to hang on and move on. After finishing my art degree all I wanted was to travel around the world! Gosh.. So 2 weeks after I arrived I was robbed and had nothing apart from my mobile phone. No money, no passport, nothing.. So beginnings were pretty tough. Then I had nice job in the pub and lived with owner family for a year, and they treated me like one of their kindred,  then I had been in a relationship with a london boy for a year, then I got really good job, year later I went travelling to south east Asia and got back to that nice job for further few years. At that time I was all high! Job in a City, wearing heels and ladies suit for work, being promoted at work, getting to be really good at what I've learned, getting management position.. I was beaming with pride! 3 years later my life have been exactly, what londoners would describe as: work hard, play hard! It was me. Schoreditch was just round the corner, lots of nice bars, trendy markets, extravagant people, unique galleries, pop up shows and exhibitions. Someone told me at that time, someone from outside this way of life, and outside of knowing what london's life is like - that I will burn myself up. I didn't believe it.

And then it happened. I started feeling really bad. Ongoing headaches, dizziness, chronic tiredness, and then anxiety... which finally led to real diagnose:
- You have a brain tumour" - I've been told..
My life went upside down. I thought it was life sentence. That I'm going to die.
Yet - i'm stil here.
Yes - I'm happy and grateful for that :)
But I'm still in London!
Why??

I's hectic, busy and overcrowded. People are rude and friends live all over town and it always take ages to get somewhere. To work, to see friends, to see some good exhibition.. I'm starting to feel fed up of all this shit.
And the jobs - they always want people who multitask, who work well under pressure and are enthusiastic about their job! Amazing - for me its an ideal description of a robot who will do all shit in a slavery way and smile while doing it! That's how I perceive London today! :(

I start to fell that my time here has been postponed too long in here.

Samoyed dogs - I just got crazy about them!

They are soo cute. And not only cute but their character is great too. I mean that they can have a strong character ;)

mummy, mummy I wanna dog!

So, there is again "dog" subject.
Well, probably because I am a dog crazy ;) When I've still worked at my previous company I wrote a project for TV show about travelling with dogs. People in America seems to be all crazy about everything dog or pet related. But here, in UK things are slightly bit different. Not to mention my original home country. But I guess, each country has its own rights and demands. Travelling with dog - "Dog travels" - meant to be about me and my companion going across different parts of the world proving that it is doable. To prove all those who buy dogs and then leave them behind; some end up with friends or family, but some of them at shelters, which I think is absolutely unnecessary! Those people who gets dogs should not treat them as a toys but like a companions. Because from that point they will become permanent part of they lives. or good and bad.
So - in meantime I've lost that job and recently I found new one. And the dog subject doesn't want to get out of my head.

I owe it to one, very special dog, which was part of my life for some time.

Dred - Cao de serra de Aires (portuguese sheep dog)

Today I came up with an idea to ask google what, if any, are the options of possibility of taking your dog to work. For very long I was convinced that is completely impossible! It looks that I was wrong!! Amazing. I think that people sometimes don't try to find solutions and just take things for what they are.  Myself is the prime example. 8 years ago I left my dog. This terribly sad experience tear my heart apart and is the only thing I truly regret doing. But I was giving it in good hands and he had good life. (more story about this some other time)

Here are some links to the website I came across - I hope that they will inspire you and will help you to keep that amazing friendship with your dog all day long as you would like, at home and work. When I had Dred, my dog - I was travelling with him, even abroad, and I was taking him with me to my University for most of the time. Everyone loved him to bits!

This first link provides list of 10 top companies who let their employees bring them along, and I was completely surprised at what I read! Amazon, Google, Ben & Jerrys are all there!


1- http://www.mnn.com/family/pets/photos/10-companies-that-let-you-bring-your-dog-to-work/working-like-a-dog

2 - https://www.bluecross.org.uk/1752-99702/-how-to-convince-your-boss-to-let-you-bring-your-dog-to-work.html

3 - http://www.cesarsway.com/tips/yournewdog/How-to-bring-a-dog-into-an-office-pack

4 - http://thebark.com/content/dogs-work?page=2

5 - http://www.telegraph.co.uk/education/3357035/Its-a-dogs-life-at-work.html

Happiness found :)

So as I start lookingoking around I found a "happiness" :) on the sliding door of a shop i was passing by! Not exactly as I expected :-D

Train thoughts

So, a while ago i set up Myself in a quest of searching for happiness. Today im sitting on the underground train on my way to work. My third day at new job. It takes me about 90 minutes to get there and another 90 to get home, plus 9 hours of work including lunch. That makes up 12 hours straight. I need about 8 hours sleep, thats already 20. 1 hour takes me to get ready for work, so there is 3 hours of the day left for all other remaining things such as evening bath, preparing and eating food, shopping, doing all things I like or I would like doing. Thats in theory, but after getting up at 6.30am and coming home about 7.30pm, resting, having some food, showering, checking social media, sometimes shopping its already time for bed. So where is the time for myself? 
I really dislike this model of life.
About the job: its ok. Nice people, nice atmosphere, can be busy and demanding, sometimes stresful, but workmates make things easier, in contradiction from my previous work.
Do i like it? ... Yes and no. I know the subject. I spent my last 6 years working in the same industry, loving and hating it. But, I studied art, and now i work as a logistick. And naturally I greately miss freedom.
I dont want to spend most of my life at work or travelling to and from it. If it at least was job of my life. Or if it was paid well. But its not.
Its ok.
I'm giving myself 3months max to make up my mind.

So today I look around to find anything that would make me feel more happy.

Passion for horses...

... was within me even when I studied art. Horse in art, and especially in modern paintings, seemed to me a bit of a kitsch, so I never did it myself, until I found my own way of expressing my fascination. I made huge clay horse for my diploma. It was the biggest ceramic sculpture ever made to that day in this Art University. It was a war horse made in almost 1:1 scale.

Love of my life

I fell in love at the age of 10. With horses ;) And precisely with an old white mare name Baska. She was my first, and only platonic love. I never got to ride on her, as she was working horse. But that's how it all started.

taken today at the stable

I carried my love to horses deep inside my heart until I was able to make my own decision and without supervision of my mum - who was crazy scared of this huge animals - to find places where I could learn horse riding. Mostly they were places where I could get some lessons for work in the stables, as my parents being against it, would never gave me a penny for that. First time it was when I was about 18, during summer holidays in the mountains. Local ranger had few horses and there I learned how to trot. Yes - it was exactly "pain in the ass" :D But I mastered it well! Then, when I was even further away from home, studying a cross country in another town I start riding in horse racing stable for a couple of years. It was lots of fun. But horses were primarily for racing not for leisure and novice rider. However I did enjoyed it greatly. I even thought of becoming a jockey myself as I am small and lightweight. But I had other dreams too. And somehow I still prefer dressage to racing.

taken today at the stable

Recently I found nice local stable where I volunteer and ride. I love being around this animals. They are big, strong, beautiful, smart, reliable and just great :)
For long time I felt a little bit sad that I started riding so late, around my twenties, where almost all the people I met, started when they were little. Some even had their own horses. I was always envy of them. Yesterday I met "young" looking woman who told me that she first rode a horse when she was 40. On her birthday and she rode ever since. She bought herself a horse and been riding it for last 8 years! so it looks that it is never too late to follow your dreams and passions.
Since meeting Monty Roberts I can't stop thinking about horses and my primal passion. I'm glad I have this stable just round a corner from my house :)

Neuschwanstein Castle - another dream place/wish to come true :)

I know I made a bucket list for things I wanted to do in my life. But it wasn't the whole list. There's much  more to it! Lots of smaller or bigger things that will make me happy. And last weekend - I've seen the most beautiful castle in the world! Well - at least the most beautiful I've ever seen so far... :) Schloss Neuschwanstein is truly fairytale castle, inside and out. It not only looks outstanding on the postcards, but in reality too! No wonder that Disney took it as his logo picture. King Ludwig II (who build this castle for himself ) was claimed madman by his medic and he lost influence over the country, because he was more interested in art, poetry and Wagner's music. He eventually drowned in nearby lake with his medic in mysterious circumstances. He only lived in his castle about 1/3 of a year. Castle has never been finished and one whole floor is completely untouched. The rest - has amazing, beautiful paintings on every possible walls and marvellous carvings. It is such a shame that visitors have only 30 minutes to enjoy the inside...
Neuschwanstein means literally the New Swan Castle in reference to one of Wagner characters the Swan Knight. Swans are also visible in many paintings and became a sort of logo of the castle.

http://www.neuschwanstein.de/englisch/tourist/index.htm

Look of the castle (and me) from the hanging bridge

part of the wall painting from concert room

view from the castle towards Alps and hanging bridge

view from the castle towards the lake

mountains

Yes - that made me happy :)

Monty Roberts - 1 of my dreams to come true!

Last night was one of the most extraordinary moments of my life - I met Monty Roberts!!! :)
My teenage hero, one of a kind man, horse whisperer, Man Who Listen To Horses. He is the one who inspired all of those who fallowed his steps and learnt how to listen to horses and understand they language, which he called Equus. He is the one who inspired movies and books about horse whisperer. But he is the one, original man! Monty Roberts, now  78 years old, but still in good form, leading, inspiring, travelling the world, teaching - amazing!
I'm happy :)

Me with Monty Roberts

Here is link to his website:
http://www.montyroberts.com

how cool is that! - to be able to travel with your dog around the world!

Oscar - the travelling dog

Amazing! Did anyone else did that??

My Happy Bucket List :)

1 - kiss a dolphin (yes, swim with it too)
2 - go around the world with a dog
3 - while doing it, blog about it - or do TV show!!!
3 - go horse riding through Mongolia
4 - travel through Siberia and get to know local witches
5 - build a house with my own hands with straw&clay (well, with help of others too)
6 - run my own horse stable
7 - get married, have kids and travel with my family
8 - run spa in Bali
9 - write a book
10 - open Victoriana - tea shop with ceramic workshop, in steampunk style
11 - be happy!

10 ways to be happy!

so how about that?

http://www.yesmagazine.org/issues/sustainable-happiness/10-things-science-says-will-make-you

miracles wanted - please apply within

Another day in paradise.
Well - I wish I could say that.Instead, I am in London, looking through my window. It's not bad actually - we have sunny day! So I could play optimist, feel optimist and pretend it is a paradise! :)
but I feel it's not entirely true.
So what could make it true?
Recently I came across Empower Network which suggest you could earn as much as you want with 2 hours a day just by blogging. Somehow it feels like a scam. Typical pyramid, and all I know is that I should stay away from it. There is no miracles in this world.. not this kind of I think. But please feel free to let me know that I'm wrong! It would be wonderful if it was!

Sun is shining and and I woke up this morning thinking how should I create my life to feel happy. How to do it. That I should choose and concentrate of one thing only. But no - I have so many things I am interested in! grrr. I want to run a tee shop, and ceramic workshop, and would like to continue and succeed with my www.love-in.co.uk business, and travel a lot, and have family: husband and kids, and a dog and live in beautiful home with large garden and have a car.. But I feel so far away from it! Disgustingly far away :( I live in rented flat, have a boyfriend who just told me that he doesn't love me - so I guess he doesn't count as a boyfriend anymore, right? But we just feel comfortable with each other.. I need to move on. And not worry that I'm gonna be 34 in couple of weeks time. Never is too late, right?
Right.
Are there miracles? I hope so. But hope is a lack of faith so according to Secret I have to chance for a miracle to happen. Instead I'm more likely for bad things ... - ok - stop!
Only good things are welcome in my life!
Bad too... - they are lessons, right?
It's just that there was enough of them already. I'm tired. And I'm reaching bottom of my forever optimistic bag.
Please, let there be a miracle. A star shining just for me!

Friday 13th.

Today is friday 13th. It actually doesn't change a thing. It's just another day.I don't believe that this number "13" brings bad luck. And - against most people my mum believes that it actually brings her "luck"! Why not, I say.
 Probably a month ago I would jump up and down because aproaching weeked meant freedom from haveing to go to work. That changed a month ago - on another friday, the 16. Week earlier my boss called me up to say that Company feels that I don't enjoy beeing there (what was absolutely bloody right!) and that they cannot help me out with changing my job role - I was asking them for that for a few months (I even had doctor's note)... and yet they said that within whole Corporation there isn't any suitable position for me, even though I poited out that I wanted to do what I had been doing for few months there, but they took it out from me to give it to my collegue! "What's been done is done - they said. Fair enough. I had enough of them for unfair treatment anyway. And all started 2 years ago. September 2011.
- "You have brain tumor" - said my neurologist...My world collapsed within minutes. Then was operation, radiotherapy, and months and months of trying to get better. I wanted get back to where I was before. When I finally got there, I realised that this wasn't the right place for me anymore! And because I started to suffer from neurological symptoms, it meant beaing different. Dependent on medication and being sensitive to certain thing such as flashing lights, or excessive use of the phone/noise coming directly to my ear causing massive migrains.
But you know what? - When they told me about redundancy I finally felt happy and free. For some reason I felt that I should open my arms and welcome upcoming good changes in my life!
Of course it doesn't meant things being easy, but it gave me a chance to design my life the way I want it to be! :)
And that's what this blog will be about :)

In a pursuit of happiness!
x

Day one

Day one. There is always day one in our journeys. Today I started mine :)
Hope to meet many great people and new friends on my journey through the Future!