Rat race vs dog sledge race

I've been thinking what is it that it has been putting me off London recently. And I think I know. London is all about rat race, fast and furious and work hard play hard. And I simply prefer slow and pleasurable. If there is any race I would consider, that would be dog sledge race or free gallop ride with my friends in countryside beautifull sourroundings. I prefer leafy jungle over overcrowded city jungle. In city jungle everyone is in a rush, annoyed by being late and often stepping on someone feet accidentally.. 

I had couple of days break away from this hectic place. It did good to me :) Although I had not enough sleep, I came back more relaxed! Amazing.

I'm doing it!!

That's it. NO matter what others might think, I am doing it. I decided it yesterday. From now on, no matter what other will think about my decisions, they will be mine decision to handle, I think about me now and about my dream coming true My life is in my hands. I hope this will be good decision, but since I decided to come and live in London things were going wrong way. I want to start make it right. I did 1st step yesterday. I bought tickets to Poland, going tomorrow, and coming back on wednesday. There's something I need to do in order to start fixing my life. Pick up from where I left. I called work, obviously they were't happy. I'm not surprise. I didn't give them any notice. I'm sorry. But only half way sorry. Because I know I'm doing it for myself ;) For my benefit. I know that I am not telling you yet WHAT is that I am doing, but I can't just yet. Soon.... :) Trust me, you will know it soon. Just follow my blog!

Am I doing it right?

Am I going in the right direction? Am I getting myself in the right place? And why is today such a weird nasty day?..  In overall, I'm in funny lethargic mood, have a flu, terrible cough and this and that.. just feel terrible. And my mum just told me she is coming over for Christmas! Well, why the hell not! Not like I had other plans, its just this was a bit of a surprise! Thats all. I don't mind, it will be nice to have family Christmas, more tradition and less of another kind of day off.. so She is coming over...

And - as I was writing it - I had a call - with a job offer! So, there IS something nice happening at the end of a day eventually! :) Nothing amazing, but - I wanted it. Job in my local pub (really great, trendy local place) so I'm gonna have close to work and - what's most important - I could get my dog asap!!! And, I will be able to get home for lunch and take him for a walk!
Cool, huh? :)

Now, I will have to speak to my current boss, to go part time.

Why am I doing this? Because I want to get my other dream to come true - yes, one of my bucket list dream, to have a dog and travel with him. This is first necessary step. Feels great, but also I am a bit nervous.

Why Not . . . Invest in Your Dreams?

I just came about very inspiring blog, which I would like to share it with you! :)
Absolutely well said, please have a look

http://www.thesimplyluxuriouslife.com/why-not-invest-in-your-dreams/#comment-14097

Grab every opportunity

"There will always be a little devil on your shoulder telling you that you can't do it, but you will have to find the confidence to overcome it" 
- said Mr. George Alagiah, famous british broadcaster to the audience of students during Speakers for School Week.

Also there more other smart saying like, Where is a will, there is a way. So - I decided to continue to purse my life challenge of happiness. As I wrote on my previous post, I want to do prove, firstable to myself, that I am able to do this, and to the whole world too, that some things ARE doable.

I wrote project about travelling with dogs. This was my childhood dream, to have my tv show where I travel to amazing places with my four legged friend and broadcast amazing stories about places and people I meet along the way.
My time is now. Its been within me for quite some time, and now I see opportunities, all I have to do, is size them right away, before they will go away!

That's why I sign up for crowdfunding website! I already done my written part, and now I am in the middle of preparing a presentation. Then, when when everythings will go nice with the plan - I will do my project!

Wish me luck!!!

Crowdfunding

do you know what this is? - I decided to take part in this and maybe, just maybe... - I will be able to get my other dream to come true!! :) the one about making document, or maybe even tv show about pros and cons about travels with dogs.

London life - KEEP CALM and carry on... ??!?!

What the hell I'm I doing here??!!
Yesterday I meet up with my french friend who came over to London for few days. One of her travelling companions asked me how long have I been here. It's been 8 years I started... The next question came up on its own, WHY I have been so long?

The truth is - I didn't meant to. I didn't even wanted to came to London anyway! But at the beginning it was kind of escape place, to hang on and move on. After finishing my art degree all I wanted was to travel around the world! Gosh.. So 2 weeks after I arrived I was robbed and had nothing apart from my mobile phone. No money, no passport, nothing.. So beginnings were pretty tough. Then I had nice job in the pub and lived with owner family for a year, and they treated me like one of their kindred,  then I had been in a relationship with a london boy for a year, then I got really good job, year later I went travelling to south east Asia and got back to that nice job for further few years. At that time I was all high! Job in a City, wearing heels and ladies suit for work, being promoted at work, getting to be really good at what I've learned, getting management position.. I was beaming with pride! 3 years later my life have been exactly, what londoners would describe as: work hard, play hard! It was me. Schoreditch was just round the corner, lots of nice bars, trendy markets, extravagant people, unique galleries, pop up shows and exhibitions. Someone told me at that time, someone from outside this way of life, and outside of knowing what london's life is like - that I will burn myself up. I didn't believe it.

And then it happened. I started feeling really bad. Ongoing headaches, dizziness, chronic tiredness, and then anxiety... which finally led to real diagnose:
- You have a brain tumour" - I've been told..
My life went upside down. I thought it was life sentence. That I'm going to die.
Yet - i'm stil here.
Yes - I'm happy and grateful for that :)
But I'm still in London!
Why??

I's hectic, busy and overcrowded. People are rude and friends live all over town and it always take ages to get somewhere. To work, to see friends, to see some good exhibition.. I'm starting to feel fed up of all this shit.
And the jobs - they always want people who multitask, who work well under pressure and are enthusiastic about their job! Amazing - for me its an ideal description of a robot who will do all shit in a slavery way and smile while doing it! That's how I perceive London today! :(

I start to fell that my time here has been postponed too long in here.